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The Beginning

Originally posted September 17, 2017

Last night I laid on my front lawn with my dog after we finished our walk.She was wet from running in the canal, and I wasn't ready to be inside. I stared up at the clouds. A plane flew into my vision headed East. Where it was going, I don't know. I simply wished I was on it. I love flying. I love airports. I love going places. And, I love being home.

It was solar eclipse day. I didn't get to see it. There was only about 94% coverage in my location. I didn't really care anyway. It was a week day. My head was down, focused. So tonight I looked up and thought of possibilities. What did I want my first blog post to be about?

Just this. Life. In all the crazy whirlwind days that go so fast and the restful nights of regrouping. It has taken a very long time to get here. I am by nature high strung and it is quite exhausting. A couple of months ago I made a conscious decision to not be that crazy anymore. It is hard work to turn off stress. I practice daily. The more I practice, the more I have opportunities to practice. I distract myself in the kitchen, walking the dog, writing. I focus on my breath. Maybe by the time I die I'll be perfect.
Welcome to my blog. I have an idea of what shape it will take and look forward to it revealing itself. I am a believer that we are here to heal and like to share my healing with others in the hope that something I say resonates. I hope you'll join me. It will be an adventure.

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