Possibilities

I feel a restlessness in my soul and an inability to make a decision about which way to go. I think part of the issue is the endless choices I see before me. Even at my advanced age, or maybe because of it, the world of choices has opened up for me and I struggle to make a decision.
Do I sell everything, buy and RV and take off with the dog on a road trip?

OR, sell everything, take the dog and move to the beach and bum around?

Or...the list goes on, although the above are top two choices. In the end, practicality will likely win out for now and I'll stay on the job I hate and continue to work towards these possible goals...as the "someday, I will". I'll continue to live in my comfortable house and participate in this safe life, for now. I'll walk the dog in the safe places and remain in the familiar because it is just that. Right now it is necessary for this restless heart to live in some stability. It is the hardest thing to do at times. I want more. This life is what I need now after years of chaos. It is important to settle and let the life I am working towards unfold without force and not within its time. I must stay present, live deliberately and consciously and at a reasonable pace. Live life on life's terms, for now.
One day, the choices will all be mine. As I work towards my freedom, I will remember it will be worth it. The possibilities will continue to unfold before me. It is